hahaaahh...pretty harsh for my first post...hahahahah

kk....lets have a headers bout me...de man!!

what is going throught my head now is...hmmm...her i guess....she's someone i can see everyday...almost evryday...since the holidays...if u think back...we were together for almost evryday..with everyone lah...but we see each other everyday...even till now...hahah...

u are special...in my life...not meaning anything...but for me...girls are plentiful..hahah...again i arent saying anything..but i just cant fall for one...as deeply as i did last yr..maybe she was de onli one who can capture my heart...but too bad..it dint wrk out...now...u popped up...before u came..i thought i was gay..cos for a long period of time...i dint really like any girls...no one at all...welll....at lease those feelings for de other girls dint last one night after a stupid underage...but urs did...urs lasted for one mth after one underage...and it's still "lasting"

i dunno am i right anot...maybe u will think that i am "a super u think u know it all but u don't"
but wad i think is tat...i like u...alot alot alot...but u have been cold n sometimes hot towards me....lol....one time..i managed to hold ur hand...wow...it was such a great feeling but..many a times...u gave me tat feeling tat u dun wanna talk to me...replying in like one word..when i am talking to you...u are more intrested in something else...hahah..its not tat u cant...but yea...i feel so sucky after tat happened...lol...just saying wad i feel ya...

maybe i should't write this....hahahh...but really...many things happened tat made me feel even worst....

one sat...i went to have dinner with my dad...one we finally had...after like 1/2 a yr...he was so happy...i can see de shine in his tired eyes..but he is just so happy...so was i...hahah..he ordered wine...seafood...steak...amounting to like 70 plus just for my meal...excluding drinks beers and wine...maybe he won de lottery...hahah...i dunno....but...just before de food came...i called u...u said tat u all were in town...and u ask me to go...woah...i jumped for joy man...cos i was missing u man...i am...even now..while typing...hahah....i told my dad..."i want to leave"....his face...de whole mood...even my mum...de noisy mum...kept quite....he just told me one word..."do not spoil de mood"...it a no lah...hahah...i dint care..i just walked away...like wtf rite...hahah...but de tot of seeing u is all that i need...man!!was i tat deep in love???nah...i dint care...hahahah...then..i met up with all of ya at 6 plus reaching 7....i saw u..all tired out...hahah...i was happy...err...not because u looked tired...but just it's you over there....woo...i am so happy...hahhaah...
then.....
u told me u going home for dinner...at 8.....so...i left my dad...for u...i somehow left my family....just to meet u...well...not alone or was it a date...but its just tat u were there...and its all tat mattered....then u say..i need to leave...one hour later...okay...i told myself..one hour...can...hahahah...but in tat hour..u maybe dint realise it...u ignored me...when i talked to u...u walked away...u played with some other guys....its not tat u cant...really...u can do wat u want...lol..i have no say over it...but..it wrecked my heart...tat nite...at de underage...i wanted to tell u all these...but i dint dare...hahah....then..u never reply...i was in de club...feeling my phone...taking it out to check...like every 5 mins...just to see...did u reply.???my mind was on u...hahhaha....

not tat i want to show how great i am..but ya...its just something i wanted to let u noe.....to show how much i liked you eh...lol....


so yah...tats one example...and for de ppl then...its pretty obvious...who she is...hahah...i think~~

so yea...meeting gay for lunch now...see ya guys.... ~.~


peace!!!

8:35 PM
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I suddenly feel tat humans are just so weak....

They really are.....

How some humans...some humans who are so big mighty tall fat and all ....still dunno how to think...

Bad mouthing is sth which we all do... backstabbing is wrong... but its human.... lying is de worst but who dosent....really....u are onli considered human if u have done at lease one of those....

so those arent wrong....it never was....its just being human....

Wad was wrong is tat ...that person is just trying to be friends....in such a way tat ppl dislike it...blame it on her luck....not on de way she tried...but on.... de ppl she met...

i can be striped naked...i can be called bitch...slut...bastard...but to be in wad she went tru is sth tat is much much worst then wad i have ever been tru...
wads worst tat can happen to a student...is tat she has to quit..not because of watever reasons...but on her luck...she met de wrong person.... persons....

two worst things tat can happen to someone...tat can happen to a singaporean...happened on tat "slut"....woo...cheers!!

tat was many ppls 1st reaction....it was mine too....and i am ashame...

even if tat is ur enemy....ur worst nightmare...someone u hate so much tat u wanted to kill....its still wrong to cheer when sth like tat happen to a human....u are one too....everyone tat is gonna read this...u are one made of fleash n bones...de same kind....so...why are u so happy tat sth tat bad is happening to someone..like u...who lied,bitched,asked and backstabbed...after all....they are just being human....which is wad u are...then sld de same fate befall u....dear human???

i hate hypocrites...who caused tat...then cheered to tat extend...thinking tat they are so dope....then they pretend to console tat someone....like....u kill someone , then u attended his funeral and gave his family every thing....but u killled him...u took away her most precious things...dear human...is tat really being wad u call...a human???

perhaps de inhuman one is u...my dear...

i am not posting this cos i like her or watever...nor isit because i hate u so much..its because...i am seeing tru my mind....not my heart....maybe u sld try too...its fun....

sry for such a emotional first post..but i really thing tat this is de place where i can truly write on how i feel...

7:25 PM
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