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Monday, November 12, 2007
class A2.....
it's heaven and earth's difference for both my classes...my class now...it roxs!!!!the people there is bloody cool...haha!!!
i realised that i dont really have any issue to really blog about...so lets just be a little lame ya..haha..
thats a distorted version of me...we...i was bored then...HAHA!!
8:31 AM
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Saturday, November 10, 2007
growing hair....
hahaha....i have been drunk for 3 cosecutive days...tat explains de disappearence...lol...
anyway...i am back!!!!
firstly....i wanna apologise....to her yah
love blinded me i say...and i am deeply apologetic for that...i talk so much bout how much i like her...love her and all...but really...from my actions...i look more like a physcotic old man....really...and deeply i am really regretful for wad i have done.....
sorry to you noe who...i have been selfishly thinking bout myself and all....but i never actually spare a tot for ya ehh...so sorry....hahah...hope we wont be as awkard as it is gonna be..it sux...big TIME!!
and...i know wads going on and all...hahah...u and him are sure naughty ya..?
and tat HIM....thx and no thx man...
thx for de silent talk in de train..tat was wad i really needed....and no thx from keeping so much frm me....u pu boh...
regarding this issue..i have a thing to say.. its bout something i have learnt. something i have really expreience yah..to love isnt really bout show off how great you are. how pathetic you are and how good u are. nor isit about blabbering so much on one's blog on wad u have done and all...listen carefully...IT's NOT....it about letting her/him be happy...its about being sensitive to her needs...and not bout deciding on wad she needs...and lastly..remind ur self tat..u like her..not u want her..tats wad love is about..
well.. tats mine theory for now...
and on this issue again....i really hope tat whatever works out...friends will still always be frens...no nothing or whatever shit...no...
lastly...really soososososso sorry for my behaviour tat past few days...i promise a better me ya...and thanks for all tat have shown concern...thanks all...
thanks ya....nites...
11:47 AM
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Thursday, November 8, 2007
light headed.......
hahah...2 consecutive nights out...wooohooo!!long since tat happpened...
feeling really refresh now...hahah....everythings totally cleared....
a real big thx to all my frens...hhaahah....they brought me the truth and also the light on wat tat i am doing......i am truely grateful....THX!!!!
i really feel so blessed now....like just 48hrs ago....i feel dammed...now...i am de most happy person on earth!!!hahah....i have one of the greatest gift anyone can get...frens...
i found de love i was lacking...welll. not founded but reunited with it...de love frm all my frens...new ones...de old ones and de fucktard one...its still so cool...hahah.
frens are really the greatest...really...so...ppl reading this. think about all the time u rreally spent with ur frens. and think about wat u all have done and also on how u feel during those times...hahah...it's rather positive uhh???
again on frens...like all things..there is a dark side n bright side to it...hahah...
ther are frens tat is so great...but also frens in which i raather not have...so...think carefully.....who are they....frens are your greates kind of drug...the good ones can cure u...help u and even make u freaking happy....the bad ones..they are the reflection of drugs...as in heroine and all...they will make u feel good...really...happy and all...but slowly..they are tearing u up from within...like the slow process of borrowing money...till it becomes a hugr sum...and when u need them...they disspears....like drugs..de frens influences u...till tat even the best of goood drugs becomes the worst...till u cant seperate good frm bad and bad from worst...till u really become the worst of the kind...and believe me..i have seen bad drugs causing death...and so did bad frens....
ppl...now think...think hard...who's good and who's arent...and belive me...there are always the black sheep...look closely...b4 it's too late ya!
and for all who has found all their greatest fren in life....celebrate for we are the luckiest people on earth..rejoice for we have been taking in all the greatest drug in the world..hahah
tats me...cheers...
10:16 PM
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Tuesday, November 6, 2007
so true as it seemed....
i just came across this verse..."the only thing that wont change in a human...is changing"
on light on my hair changing and me..mentally changing...let me bring across...all human changes!!
my sis and i...we hate our mum tat much!!sometimes....well..lets not drag my sis down...but time to time....she irritates us...i mean me...
well...my sis have 2 sons now...cute and all..but while having her 1st son...and when my mum and her was alone in de hospital room....she told my mum this...a person has to pay to grow up.
i agree alot....and by putting both versers together...u will realised...a person has to pay no matter wad...cos they will change no matter wad..and really..in my 17 yrs of living...i exprience tat many a times...either on myself or i see it in other ppl..
change isnt always good...normally the changes u notice are bad...
like u grow taller each day...and u mum love u more each day...but u wont notice it..untill one day ur leg cant be inside your bed..then u notice...
but bad changes like...ur mum hates u more..u grow fatter..and maybe even u drop 10 cents...u will notic it straight away...sometimes u can even feel it...haah....tats how changes occur....in everyday life...
all the four point above...mix it together, and pour it into a human shaped container...your human is 1/2 done..hahah...we human changes every day...good or bad...we change...but the changes occuring in a human is more special...weather good bad...it will still take some time..and it is still reversable....depending on ur degree of bad...de time applies too...
so..if u realised tat u are changing for de worst..hurry!!turn back...haha....cos as i say...bad changes are noticable....
well...as all people changes...some people will accept it..some won't...
tats when u loose a fren...a "stead"...a very good brother....
tats life...u will just learn to accept it...but truely...ask urself now...haha....how much have u change...since...hmmm...pri sch...and was it a good change...
hahah...weird...i sound so philosophical....die~~
see ya guys...hahah!!
6:34 AM
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new me......
haha....i just shaved...not anywhere but it my head....more importantly...it's de left side of my head...hahah...de so called mark of a new me....
de post this afternoon...i was so emotional....even till after i woke up....
i went to bath. looked at myself. and maybe cried a little. cos it was damn steamy in my bath room...anyway...i looked at my new decending layer...and i tot...wad about a decending front...and so i started....i wanted it to be a mark of me...finally wanting to let go...hahah...and so all de shaving and cutting started...and wooo...cool!!
i arent used to it first...but when i spiked it and all..woohoo
COOL~~~~
it used to be my wish to have such heads. and i finally have them...well...not as i planned for it to happen...but yea...
this shall mark the date i try to let go...not being sure i can...or not..but i shall try...hahah...
feeling alot fresher now...and yea...tml's a new date to start forgetting...
deep down..i know i cant lah...even as "lighted headed" as i am now...i am still so heavily thinking bout her...but really...let me try...and i promise...in de course of trying..and i failed....i will surely go and ask her..
DO YOU LIKE mE!!!!!!??
tats is..if i fail trying...or if suddenly sparks really me...hahaha
i sound dumb..but yea..tats wad i am gonna do!!
someone told me...i should be like myself....be cheerful and so happy...and finally i shall do it..hahah
i try to get a photo and upload...my new hair...see ya guys..hahah....woo!
6:12 AM
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music makes de mood....
how true it seems...
i carry my ipod around most of the time. and time to time i would listen to it. at these times,i would have plenty of things happen around me...and depending on de song...my actions to de speed of my walking and my facial expression will change...
do you realise that while listen to a fast paced funk music...u will walk alot faster...carrying a smile...while listen to..lets say "make it work-by nee yo"...a slow RnB...u will walk fast too...but ur face will be in a kinda stern while cool expression....
similarly...while listen to funk...and someone calls u...u will react with a smile. no matter who called u. on the other hand. u will turn around with a blur face while listening to a sad song...
i often am a smart alex...when i am so sad...i listen to songs that are sad...making me even "sadder". whereas...while being happy...i will listen to a happy song...well~~lets say i ran out of energy in 10 mins time...
do u guys have this habit of pressing next all the time. or this habit of listening to the same song...again n again....sadly...i have both habits....now i am addicted to make it work...whereas the rest of the songs...i just keep pressing next....i have to put new songs inside already ehh??
time and time again...i feel sad and emotional...most because of her...haha...dunno y...but ya...
onli one thing can bring me outta tat emotional state...it's funk....
sadly...this time...funk cant...i am sad over something i cant control...something i never wanted to know about...but was revealed to me...and over something tat was kept from me...but accidentally showed to me...
i dedicated this post to my ipod ya...thanks for always being there for me...althought u arent tat powerful...but u have helped me time and time again..thanks..
napping time...hope every things turn for the better ya...see ya.
1:37 AM
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Sunday, November 4, 2007
its raining now...and i just closed my i-tunes...i am typing in darkness....
i am feeling so empty now....i tried to start a conversation with her just now...and de replies all came in a..."ya" , "lol" kinda way.....the way in which makes it so diff to continue a convo....i wonder if she does tat to others....or isit me onli..."her way of say buzz off eh??"
it took me so much courage to click on her name...and to say a simple hello...i got a "yo" back...then i went on a little...then she says she's slping soon...she dont wwanna talk to me eh??...i often use de same excuse too....karma....
i tried telling her tat it is very diif for me...really...but i dint dare....i lost all courage eh....
i ask weather she's seen my blog...she haven...but i guess she will be coming in soon...she will see al these....and she will think tat i am a big hypocrite....ask her to come in and see wad i dint dare to tell her face to face...hahah...wad a thing i need now...to fill this emptyness ehh??
wonderful wonderful wonderful....
the weather reflects on me now....and i think de rain's dripping tru....i can feel it on my cheeks..hahha....
gotta try and break tru ya...like i always did....so yea...schs tml...try to go to slp now...should's waste de rain..
7:55 AM
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